In the past, a host of emotions would come up for me on Mothers Day. My Mom left her body almost 5 years ago from Lung Cancer. She smoked a couple packs a day my whole life...just about hers too. When I was 15, she kept cartons in the second drawer in the kitchen next to the stove. I started taking a pack here and there and when she found out I was a smoker, she said she knew I was taking them. In my Junior year in High School, Health became my favorite subject. The teacher spoke in a language that made me passionate about the human body. Learning about the organs fascinated me! From that point, I thought I wanted to be a nurse and I stayed on that path and began working as a CNA while going to school for Nursing. I was slowly figuring out that I wanted to be healthy and I wanted to help people healthy but my surroundings were not promoting this. I was having a fun time doing what I was doing. Nothing was wrong so why change?
There will be a variety of BLOGS about my story and my WHY I am SO passionate about helping you. THIS BLOG is going to focus on how I am committed to helping you quit smoking. When I was about 23 in 1997, a pack of cigarettes was $3.50. It felt like a lot of money and people kept saying the price would keep going up. I knew I didn't feel good smoking. I didn't feel good about myself, the drying quality felt horrible to my body and I knew I smelled like toxic chemicals. Now that I am well studied in Ayurveda and have learned about my constitution through this lens, it all makes sense to me as why my body hated the dry quality.
I knew it was time for me to quit...I felt it on a deep level and it was a process. From a Psychology perspective I took the desensitization path for quitting. This is a method used to help people overcome anxieties. The anxiety of what would I do without having a cigarette to hold onto was so big that slowly quitting was my process. Once I got the idea in my mind it was not an option to have cigarettes anymore, I eventually got over it.
Being a Yoga teacher since 2004 and learning how to meditate, as well studying the 8 limbed path of a Yogi, I felt this visceral connection to feeling a deep connection to my soul, the depth of who I truly am and the breathing practice was the connection I was seeking while smoking. Taking in that big deep breath and holding it and letting it go....AH...Visualizing that sense of holding that cigarette and feeling it between my lips and inhaling toxic chemicals and blowing them back out into the universe. NOW, its like taking the biggest breath in and holding on to all that sustains me and keeps me strong and exhaling all the negative excess baggage that holds me back from being WHO I AM!